I'm sitting in the living room of D's new apartment, in front of the
floor-to-ceiling windows. They overlook a semi-busy road, but with the
apartment being 7 floors up, the traffic's not really an issue.
These windows are a good place to sit and dream. You can see a small
part of the Singapore River, several commercial/business buildings, some
recreational facilities, a couple of green spaces and the road. There's
lots of movement, but it's not noisy. It's about the same level or
slightly higher than the roofs of the buildings across the road, so
there's no worry about people seeing in, and we have an unobstructed
view of Raffles Place and the river. The big green space directly across
the road adds a nice fresh touch to the view. It's a good place to sit
and watch and dream.
I've been staying here the last week or so, keeping the rabbit company.
D suggested it, since I'm currently doing a production just across
the river at SRT's DBS Arts Centre. This way, too, Bunny gets to
establish territory before Kitty moves in. D's been really sweet
about it. He's allowed me to treat this apartment as my own for this
week, and I've had people over to look at the place, or to use the
shower, or just to hang.
D hasn't moved in yet; he does so in two days, at which time I'll
have to turn the apartment over to him. I find myself a little regretful
at having to do so. It's such a lovely little apartment, in such a
pretty development, and with a pretty good location. More than that, it
feels good. It has a peaceful, beautiful feel to it. The whole
development has a resort-like feel to it. And I really like living
alone. I like not having to deal with other people in the house if I
don't want to. I like having a place to retreat to if I want to. It
doesn't even matter if I actually do it - the knowledge that the option
is there is freeing in itself. I like being alone. The first couple of
nights I was a bit lonely and a little scared, but I got over it pretty
quickly. Having the rabbit around helped. :)
Starting the day here is wonderful. Every morning I've been here, I've
woken up, puttered around getting ready, picking up some breakfast, just
messing around by myself. Stepping out, I hear the sound of the water
features downstairs; it sounds like a heavy rain, and it is a great
welcome to the outside. It makes the whole day feel better.
While I love being with D and I love waking up with him around,
there's something special about being by yourself, in a space where you
don't have to account to anyone. It's quite indescribable.
This, this is why I want to live on my own for at least a few
months before I get married.
